( people who want to live see the world differently from people who want to die, so he can't see how it's awful, but he understands it's not something she wants to hear. when people are told to die, and are killed by others without the want from it, they feel as if they failed, that it was taken from them before they even had a chance. then there are those who choose to die with pride, still having that, and normally the enemy loses out on that fulfillment, the satisfaction gone from their grasp, and then they feel as if they missed their chance.
it's a victory that dies with you that no one can have, and if she wanted to protect him, at a young age like that. she's a brave individual, for someone to risk their life for someone like shin tsukimi, there are truly idiots in the world. yet, people too have saved komaeda's life, so he can't say much about it. )
Chidouin-san, in a position like that, did you think Tsukimi-kun would thank you?
( "thank you for saving me", or "aha... you made the right call, miss sara" is what she was probably looking for, validation for her decision from the person that she saved. someone like tsukimi shin deserves a bit more credit, he isn't grasping at straws, accepting the pill that's given to him to swallow because he's lost his sense of taste, so it makes sense why he couldn't stomach such an idea. why he didn't care for her apology. )
...Ah, he's not your Tsukimi-kun. He would have known if you killed her already, but...
( it's that odd piece npckun had said before, "he has a three year old sibling waiting at home for him," and he thinks about how messy these worlds happen to be, their lives truly play like a simulation with alternate routes, and paths that they pave for themselves, some more painful than others for them. )
That's for another time. ( clearing his throat, he pauses, thinking about whose side he would have been on for this, she had asked him before who would he have picked. komaeda's answer was to allow them to choose, but that's not how it worked from ranger's explanation of the game. he had the key, so he had the vote, but the thought to swallow the key and choke on it was always there for him. ) A sorry will never be enough, but... why do you take his response so negatively, people who can react so emotionally... shows that they care.
( as for komaeda who stares with a lack of emotion in his own eyes, empty, dead just like the appearance that he has. those that can cry, those that can yell their feelings from when they feel pain, but there's no such thing as that for others who are numb to their surroundings. shin still has something left, though he should be handled carefully, even his own thoughts and actions tend to bite him in the ass, and so he would jut to various conclusions on the defense. )
I think friends act like this at each other. ( isn't that why hinata yelled and cried at him when komaeda's true personality was shown to the crowd, it's because they trusted each other, and that's why he yelled and screamed when he remembered komaeda throwing his lack of talent in his face, and his world felt like it was ending. ) If he wasn't angry, then you'd have something to be worried about. ( he glances over to the coat, then back over to sara, that sort of reaction wasn't for survival, what is it... proving she was right? how nasty. )
I'm disappointed, but not surprised. Hurting him with what abused his sanity before, that truly is cruel of you, Chidouin-san.
( he won't cut any corners, but he doesn't get up to leave, instead, he takes a deep breath. )
You weren't wrong, but it sounds like he was in a fit of hysterics, trying to find some semblance of being right, because his thoughts have all been wrong. That in itself, isn't wrong to do, it's backing himself into a corner, but...
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Date: 2021-12-30 08:37 am (UTC)it's a victory that dies with you that no one can have, and if she wanted to protect him, at a young age like that. she's a brave individual, for someone to risk their life for someone like shin tsukimi, there are truly idiots in the world. yet, people too have saved komaeda's life, so he can't say much about it. )
Chidouin-san, in a position like that, did you think Tsukimi-kun would thank you?
( "thank you for saving me", or "aha... you made the right call, miss sara" is what she was probably looking for, validation for her decision from the person that she saved. someone like tsukimi shin deserves a bit more credit, he isn't grasping at straws, accepting the pill that's given to him to swallow because he's lost his sense of taste, so it makes sense why he couldn't stomach such an idea. why he didn't care for her apology. )
...Ah, he's not your Tsukimi-kun. He would have known if you killed her already, but...
( it's that odd piece npckun had said before, "he has a three year old sibling waiting at home for him," and he thinks about how messy these worlds happen to be, their lives truly play like a simulation with alternate routes, and paths that they pave for themselves, some more painful than others for them. )
That's for another time. ( clearing his throat, he pauses, thinking about whose side he would have been on for this, she had asked him before who would he have picked. komaeda's answer was to allow them to choose, but that's not how it worked from ranger's explanation of the game. he had the key, so he had the vote, but the thought to swallow the key and choke on it was always there for him. ) A sorry will never be enough, but... why do you take his response so negatively, people who can react so emotionally... shows that they care.
( as for komaeda who stares with a lack of emotion in his own eyes, empty, dead just like the appearance that he has. those that can cry, those that can yell their feelings from when they feel pain, but there's no such thing as that for others who are numb to their surroundings. shin still has something left, though he should be handled carefully, even his own thoughts and actions tend to bite him in the ass, and so he would jut to various conclusions on the defense. )
I think friends act like this at each other. ( isn't that why hinata yelled and cried at him when komaeda's true personality was shown to the crowd, it's because they trusted each other, and that's why he yelled and screamed when he remembered komaeda throwing his lack of talent in his face, and his world felt like it was ending. ) If he wasn't angry, then you'd have something to be worried about. ( he glances over to the coat, then back over to sara, that sort of reaction wasn't for survival, what is it... proving she was right? how nasty. )
I'm disappointed, but not surprised. Hurting him with what abused his sanity before, that truly is cruel of you, Chidouin-san.
( he won't cut any corners, but he doesn't get up to leave, instead, he takes a deep breath. )
You weren't wrong, but it sounds like he was in a fit of hysterics, trying to find some semblance of being right, because his thoughts have all been wrong. That in itself, isn't wrong to do, it's backing himself into a corner, but...
( that doesn't mean she was right, either. )