Is it without reason..? Why we were there. Gashu talked about it..and so did Mi--Hiyori. Like it was a ritual. [ The scope of the game, lying under their feet like a rotting underbelly was hard to comprehend. Years and years and years and years of this, lying around them in waste. Nothing beside remains. ]
Balancing. [ Sara mutters quietly when Shin brings up first trials as if thats a concept she's explained to him. Again, another knot in the web of preparation. She coughs, raising her voice as she follows after him. ] I don't think I'm wrong. This game had a purpose, like these collars. So I absolutely can't believe they'd kill us on a whim.
[ She follows after him towards his room, but half a step behind. Normally stalwart, Sara doesn't want to be close when it comes to Sou's room. The knowledge of her own corpses location is strange comfort. They've already seen it, so there's no way it can be here, doing anything suspicious. With that in mind, it should be easy to put her worries and sins aside, and help Sou...right? ]
[Gashu cared about the game enough to kill himself for it, that much Shin knows for sure. It's clear an intense amount of money was invested in this alone. But being deeply invested in the game doesn't mean you care about the players. At least not the kind of care that isn't ash and tar, sick and sweet and utterly rotten-core false...]
Ahaha... well, you'd know more wouldn't you?
[A bit of a jab, Midori's last name the tuning fork it's done with... but also his way of dropping slash conceding the argument.
His pace is brisk and stiff but at least there's no other bodies in the hall connecting the rooms... Shin comes to a stop at his, staring at the door. The scarf swings with the motion and stills like a pendulum. He sets his hand on the doorknob. There's a second or two before he inhales, exhales, and opens it like ripping off the bandaid.
The smell of blood instantly once more assaults their senses. Shin freezes, fingers dangling then falling off the doorknob, looking into the room with widened eyes before slowly walking in.]
[ She doesn't have a response to that. Instead, she stands silently behind him as Shin turns the handle. His eyes widen, and he steps inside shakily, following by the reeking stench of blood. Sara falls in half step behind him, tugging at the bow of her uniform with hidden anxeity.
Shin's room looks much the same as it had, all those months ago. The bed is crumpled and unmade, the warm lights ascew and the windows dark. The only splash of color is a vivid stain of red and teal crumpled by the side of the bed. Shin lies chest down...the head itself is missing, instead replaced by a stain of lurid red which blends into the puddle of singed scarf. His hand is still outstretched, reaching out forward with bloody fingers and several broken nails. As Sara stares, she could almost swear she saw them twitch, but that might have been her own rapidly blurring vision.
But that wasn't the only thing in the room, when Sara raised her gaze to the bedside table, Sara saw a familiar bucket and mess of green hair that had every half hearted comfort dead in its tracks. ]
[He walks in and, well, even with mental preparation... his thoughts go choppy and red. It's him. His scarf. His blood. He's dead... He kind of feels like he's underwater, the same feeling that he had in the hall of mirrors, of being in waking nightmare, of that oppressive weight of unheard wine-glass noise and being watched and judged by unknown standards found wanting.
On the outside, he just sways a little, glazed eyes fixed on it and hand firmly in scarf. His mind is oil on water suddenly, separated out. He's watching himself move.]
Gloomy... [It's a murmur, a comment, a sigh, detached. He takes a step forward, and actually lifts his eyes up and what he sees... it's enough to crash through that like the crack of lightning that happens when two charges collide. His voice is very, very small.]
...K- Kanna...?
[Kanna? It's the only thought in his head. That she still has her head is registering on the subconscious level but not breaking through.]
Edited (forgot formatting sfdgfhgh also didn't like the same word repeating) Date: 2021-09-13 07:06 am (UTC)
[ Just imagine Sara is standing stock still and speechless behind Sou, because a miracle happens before she can even move to comfort him. The small shape in the corner of the bed moves with frantic panic, wide green eyes ]
Sou! SOU!
[ Kanna Kazuchi, small, collarless and alive, stands on the other side of the bed, shaking like a leaf. The front of her shirt is stained with blood, her eyes are glazed and shaking but she looks at Shin with a feverish clarity. ]
Y-you're alive? Did it stop? Did Kanna mistake something again? ...She thought she saw...
[ It's funny because...its not a convincing lie. The body is right there between them, like the phone, like everything else, but Kanna isn't the type of girl. She wanted to stand on her own, for the kind words of the people who protected her...but it was their words that mattered, even if they were lies. She was weak like that. Even if Sou wasn't real, she wanted to see him again. She wanted to hear: It's alright.
She sprints to meet him, stepping over his own body to grip at the corners of his jacket. Her sleeves are wet and red, but she reaches up a shaking hand to grab at his scarf and sob into his chest. ]
Kanna was so afraid. She...she thought you were gone, Sou. Kanna was so useless, she couldn't do anything. Again and again...she can't protect anyone. [ The rest is cut off by a sob. ]
[This time... there's no hesitation at all. No glass-carefulness, or possessive placement, like his touch is tightly controlled poison. He hopes she can put up with his poison a little longer, because he's hugging her as tightly as he can (which is not very, but it's the thought that counts).
And if his breath is hitching a little as well, it's just silent laughter.]
Kanna... [His heart is breaking. There's a long stretch of time he leaves it at that, working his tongue with his teeth because he can't mess this up again, he can't.] You're just a kid... I-it's not your job to... we're supposed to protect you, that's how it is...
[He's giving silent thanks to the body on the floor, himself both dead and alive and Kanna alive alive alive.]
Still in the hall, that half step hesitance behind Sou casting her perfectly in shadow as she watches Kanna reach out to Sou. The way his breath hitches, the way they cling to each other. Truly, its undoubtable how much they cared for each other. She can't even be sure why she doubted it. She's never seen Sou look like this, never in a million years. Never seen him smile like there wasn't anything weighing him down, not a trace of Sou Hiyori to be seen.
She ruined this. She...it was her. There's no one else she can blame. She took this away from him--the words catch-- I didn't want too! What had she been thinking back then...the memories are fuzzy with panic, the thought process of a girl she knows is her, but could hardly recognize.
Kanna's getting blood all over Shin's shirt. She's hugging him...Sara...Sara can't look. ]
[ She didn't hug Sou before she died. Kanna. She didn't hug him. So why now? She's never seen this before...
She's gripping her head, sweating bullets, and if the two in front of her weren't so distracted, they'd probably notice. Sara lowers her hands.
Kanna...at what point did Sara stop thinking about Kanna like she was a person, instead of a nameless sin? Back then, she thanked Sara, she told Sara too look after Sou, and Sara's been trying, right? She defended him from Midori, she helped him here, keeping that will alive. Even if looking at Sou's hateful expression...she thought maybe she'd regretted it. That she made the wrong choice. Kanna had been a kid, Sou was right, but Sara she...
She'd grown numb to it, just a little. To the reality of not being able to save Kanna and Nao. But now it stood stark and cruel before her, a thousand times worse then anything Midori had said about her true nature.
[ But even still, among the roiling horror inside her, that vile voice still spoke, black as tar. The part of her, however small at first, but growing larger.
She...cannot break down here. She cannot, absolutly not, NEVER let Sou know. He'd kill her. She knows he will, even if she tries to carry on Kanna's wish. He'd kill her, and she'd deserve it. She doesn't want to die.
The two of them are still distracted, so...so...its enough time to bite down on the palm of her hand, and stifle any cry. Force her face back into something more approaching greatfullness. Somehow, she'd doubt Sou would notice, with Kanna by his side again. She wasn't good at emoting at the best of times. She was clammy enough, from her brush with her own corpse...
[Is he a little pettily annoyed when Sara speaks up before Kanna can finish? Yes. But he can try and be the better person here. He'd almost forgotten she was there...
He takes a step swinging outwards so they're all facing each other, breaking the hug; the arm closest to Kanna lingering for a second more before returning to it's usual place. He's still standing close to her, the way Sara might remember... going into a room to see them there like peas in a pod.]
Yep. Just the two of us, though.
[The spell's sort of been broken... now he has no idea how he's going to deal with this. He wipes the edges of his eyes with a thumb matter-of-factly, falling back into a default. It's one thing to want to change, another to rip off every inch of your own tattered stitched-together skin. He should know.]
Let's get you out of here, Kanna.
[Maybe she'd disappear like smoke and mirrors, the moment he took his eyes off her, and he knows he'll hate the school deeply and vindictively for it, but he couldn't live with himself either, insomuch as he still can, if he didn't try. She can't stay here, in the silent dark with only corpses.
...it's probably apparent that thoughts of the laptop have been detonated. That sort of thing happens even when you're not behind it, Sara.]
[ She's just the worst person in the world like that..
She waves a hand to say hello. Sara might not be like Shin, in some concrete belief her touch is poison, but she thinks if Kanna comes any closer she might loose what composure she's regained. ]
Yes, everyone else... [ The look she shoots Shin is hesitant and tight, how much should they say? ] Everyone else seemed...do you know what happened?
[ The second look she shoots Shin is more severe, a pained wild, indescribable expression, half close to something genuine breaking through because yes, she might want to protect Kanna somewhere, deep among every conflicted feeling, but this isn't real, is it? This is still that elevator...a nightmare meant to torment them. ...Torment her, probably. Shin seems happy. But the school knew what she couldn't bear to see. ]
[ When Shin's arm moves, Kanna still hangs onto his sleeve, a single hand clinging for a point of contact. Its unsually clingy for Kanna, but she's just had a shock. So maybe she doesn't want to let go. ]
Kanna...she...doesn't know. [ It takes an few tries for he to get the words out, gripping Shin's coat like a lifeline. ] We were alone in the room...and all the collars went off. It was so noisy. She could hear it...all across the floor.
[ Her other hand comes up to grip at her bucket, staring down at her feet as the younger girl tries to cling to a courage that feels too big for her. But Kanna...she needs to tell someone, she can't break down like Kugie. She wants to understand, so she has to focus. ]
But now Kanna is confused. Because, what she remembers isn't true. She thought...Sou...When he heard that. He grabbed Kanna. He did something with her collar, but before Kanna could even blink, he'd pushed her away. It was so fast. Kanna didn't even have a chance to try! She c-couldn't, not even in time to ask him why! [ The damn finally breaks, and she wrenches her hand away from Sou to sob suddenly into her hands. ]
Did..that not happen? Is everything actually okay, and Kanna's just crazy? She's so confused, because Sara and Sou are here and okay, and getting along now. Does this mean she died?
[He gives Sara a harried expression over Kanna's head in return of like - well, what do you expect him to do? He knows it's not real, he knows it's all an illusion but... what do you expect him to do? Watch her as he abandons her? Get a real good look at what that would look like? He doesn't trust this as far as he can throw it, he's waiting for the other shoe to drop and turn this into as much of a nightmare as the wolf but... until then... he can't do it. He just can't. Something in him's broken and he can't do that, jamming whenever he tries to pull the lever.
He doesn't try to shake Kanna off or detach her as she explains... she's Allowed. :' )]
I wouldn't think about it too hard, if I were you.
[Easy, almost too easy, to slip into the same groove, the same footsteps. Don't even bother Kanna, silly child. You wouldn't get it, so don't even try. Just leave it to him and do what he says... and don't betray him. Some soft part of him mewls a pained warning, and it widens into a sharp split, like turning something double-sided inside out, when she asks if she died, because he knows that well, hand hovering and falling as she sobs, leaning over, head turned to her.]
Y-you're still breathing, aren't you? Just focus on that...
[What she's said though... the collars all going off at once? That's... not impossible, but why? Why end the game there? He can belatedly and begrudgingly admit it... Sara has a point. It's bizarre. Kanna's though... he must have used his key on her. He can't help but glance at himself on the floor, like levering up a scab. Blood under his fingernails... he'd regretted it, he'd clawed at his collar and spat at the world in his last moments, still trying any way out to survive but... before that, he'd done it, knowing it. In at least one universe, even if it was a school's sick play, he'd done it. He'd asked Sidney what made them different... and this is... in it's own way, an answer.]
Ahaha... I guess this means... you've won, Kanna. You've won! Ahahahaha....
[The laugh and the smile... they're warped by his own incongruous relief.]
[ Her eyes are still full of tears, even as she turns to grab onto Sou's arm, the already stained fabric stretching taunt as she stares up at him. ]
Don't! Just don't! Don't make it sound like Kanna wanted this! It's not hard to say that she wanted to escape with everyone! Sou, and Sara, and Reko and everyone else! So don't say...say something like that.
[ She's a dumb, useless, sister killing kid and she didn't want this to happen. Seeing her sister, and now Sou die in her place...how is she supposed to atone for that? Wasting their lives for someone who couldn't do anything. Its awful.
Her eyes stray up to Sou's face, then down, widening to the lack of a collar poking up from behind the scarf. Sara is the same. ]
She didn't want to win without either of you...
[ Being haunted anyway...by someone kind. But it was her fault wasn't it, if she won? So why couldn't they be cruel? ]
[The smile feels stuck on his face, pasted, as she grabs his arm, corners twitching as it tries to fall and can't. Stop stop stop stop stop stop it stop... STOP IT, something somewhere is trying to apply the brakes but uh.]
Ahaha... of course you didn't want it Kanna. You're a good kid like that... [How is his attempt at at a comforting tone coming out so wrong has he just done this too much, drunk too much of it, and now he's just stuck being this now? Who's in control right now?] Escape with everyone huh... would be nice...
[He still remembers it, the high and low of it.]
It's disgusting isn't it... but... can't I be happy it's you? It's not like there's anything that can be done now...
[ She can't bare to watch this anymore, no matter how many sins she's hiding. Gently she reaches for his shoulder, knowing the sudden contact will probably make him flinch, but gripping on anyway. Pulling him back, just a little. ]
Enough... It's fine.
[ She looks down at Kanna with a smile Sou can't see. Her fingers dig into the corner of his scarf, not enough to be painful, but tight enough she can't hide the tremble. ]
What Sou is trying to say...is that he's very worried for you, and he's glad you're alright.
[He does flinch, as much from the tone as from the hand on his shoulder. The slight tug back feels like it might as well be a wrenching. It breaks through what's happening like a whip-crack, enough for him to fall silent, look away. He's scaring her...]
S-sorry...
[He bites his tongue before he can say more than that. Sara's fingers tighten, shaking... he has practice enough with Komaeda fighting the urge to lean away a little, his shoulder stiff and still.]
I... think I'll go. W-won't be long...
[He tries to smile but it's weak and transient, like he's used it all up. He flicks Sara a look as he pulls away towards the door, still kind of held by the shoulder. After days of telling Kanna to stay away from Sara, don't speak to her, don't interact, don't trade tokens... this might seem very strange to her, he thinks. He's trusting you with her, the look says. Very specifically and deliberately. Don't betray him.
He ducks one side down a little in a worryingly practiced motion and leaves proper... after a period of time to have a bit of a Moment and then some exploration (can't really call it a headcount if nobody has heads) he comes back, panting and a little out of breath, leaning against the door frame.]
Q-taro's missing...!
Edited (needs more stutter) Date: 2021-09-18 08:29 am (UTC)
[When Sou returns, Sara and Kanna are quietly talking in low tones. Sara is kneeling down, staring at Kanna in the eyes with an unexpected seriousness while Kanna clasps her hands, gazing back with equal intensity.
A small fragment can be heard, before they turn to look at him.]
"-so you promised?"
Yes. [ Sara's teeth clench, but she stops short, looking up and over at Sou. ]
M...missing? Are you sure? There's lots of secret passages on this floor. [ Though only Gin should know about them, this early. ]
[ Kanna also looks over. Despite the situation, she looks a bit better, between talking to Sou and a little time alone with Sara. A blanket has been placed over the body near the bed. ]
Kanna knows Q-taro was acting a little weird, maybe he found something that made them want to end the game?
[He briefly wonders what they were talking about, but the thought travels from one side of his head to the other and out without hitting anything. The blanket over himself... good idea. Kanna shouldn't have to look at that.]
I'm sure... I even checked the room above the monitor room. [The computers were useless without the chip but the memorandum was... unsettling. He'd moved on quickly before the portrait could stare at him any further.] There's only so far anyone could have gone... I couldn't get in the attractions alone to check... but Q-Taro wouldn't have been able to either.
[Most of the group seemed be where or near where they were when the collars went off but Gin... he'd clearly been trying to head towards the lobby. Shin had spent a while stuck staring down at the small form. He'd stolen a blanket from one of the other bedrooms and unwittingly likewise covered it.
Kanna... he fully enters the room a bit more cautiously, torn between wanting to be next to her and not trusting himself after that and sort of awkwardly hovering as a result.]
Acting weird... [Found something... A horrible train of thought starts to move, very slowly, but picking up speed, and the blood runs out of his face as he recalls a certain bribe and the world narrows into a pinpoint of horror.] Kanna, didn't we... don't tell me the escape ticket...!
[Kanna had found out Q-Taro was trying to gather a lot of tokens. Sou knew how to buy the escape ticket. It had seemed like the perfect thing to offer for the laptop... especially since it was probably a lie or a trap or just a toying string. He didn't think that amount would be actually achievable! Surely everyone wasn't that stupid!]
Edited (some italics) Date: 2021-09-21 08:06 am (UTC)
[ Sara only has time to say that before the lights flicker, plunging them both into darkness. A low rumble echos through the faculity, and when the lights brigthen again, she's on her feet, eyes wide. faint trickle of dust falls from the ceiling between Kanna, Shin and Sara. ]
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Date: 2021-09-11 09:39 am (UTC)Balancing. [ Sara mutters quietly when Shin brings up first trials as if thats a concept she's explained to him. Again, another knot in the web of preparation. She coughs, raising her voice as she follows after him. ] I don't think I'm wrong. This game had a purpose, like these collars. So I absolutely can't believe they'd kill us on a whim.
[ She follows after him towards his room, but half a step behind. Normally stalwart, Sara doesn't want to be close when it comes to Sou's room. The knowledge of her own corpses location is strange comfort. They've already seen it, so there's no way it can be here, doing anything suspicious. With that in mind, it should be easy to put her worries and sins aside, and help Sou...right? ]
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Date: 2021-09-12 12:04 pm (UTC)Ahaha... well, you'd know more wouldn't you?
[A bit of a jab, Midori's last name the tuning fork it's done with... but also his way of dropping slash conceding the argument.
His pace is brisk and stiff but at least there's no other bodies in the hall connecting the rooms... Shin comes to a stop at his, staring at the door. The scarf swings with the motion and stills like a pendulum. He sets his hand on the doorknob. There's a second or two before he inhales, exhales, and opens it like ripping off the bandaid.
The smell of blood instantly once more assaults their senses. Shin freezes, fingers dangling then falling off the doorknob, looking into the room with widened eyes before slowly walking in.]
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Date: 2021-09-13 06:19 am (UTC)[ She doesn't have a response to that. Instead, she stands silently behind him as Shin turns the handle. His eyes widen, and he steps inside shakily, following by the reeking stench of blood. Sara falls in half step behind him, tugging at the bow of her uniform with hidden anxeity.
Shin's room looks much the same as it had, all those months ago. The bed is crumpled and unmade, the warm lights ascew and the windows dark. The only splash of color is a vivid stain of red and teal crumpled by the side of the bed. Shin lies chest down...the head itself is missing, instead replaced by a stain of lurid red which blends into the puddle of singed scarf. His hand is still outstretched, reaching out forward with bloody fingers and several broken nails. As Sara stares, she could almost swear she saw them twitch, but that might have been her own rapidly blurring vision.
But that wasn't the only thing in the room, when Sara raised her gaze to the bedside table, Sara saw a familiar bucket and mess of green hair that had every half hearted comfort dead in its tracks. ]
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Date: 2021-09-13 06:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-13 07:01 am (UTC)On the outside, he just sways a little, glazed eyes fixed on it and hand firmly in scarf. His mind is oil on water suddenly, separated out. He's watching himself move.]
Gloomy... [It's a murmur, a comment, a sigh, detached. He takes a step forward, and actually lifts his eyes up and what he sees... it's enough to crash through that like the crack of lightning that happens when two charges collide. His voice is very, very small.]
...K- Kanna...?
[Kanna? It's the only thought in his head. That she still has her head is registering on the subconscious level but not breaking through.]
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Date: 2021-09-13 07:24 am (UTC)Sou! SOU!
[ Kanna Kazuchi, small, collarless and alive, stands on the other side of the bed, shaking like a leaf. The front of her shirt is stained with blood, her eyes are glazed and shaking but she looks at Shin with a feverish clarity. ]
Y-you're alive? Did it stop? Did Kanna mistake something again? ...She thought she saw...
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Date: 2021-09-13 08:00 am (UTC)Aha... ahaha... That's my line... I'm... I'm alive, Kanna... I'm sorry I couldn't...
[Tell you. Be there for you. Be a better person in general, when it came to you.
It's not real.]Come here, Kanna. Don't... don't look at it... It's not real.
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Date: 2021-09-13 08:14 am (UTC)[ It's funny because...its not a convincing lie. The body is right there between them, like the phone, like everything else, but Kanna isn't the type of girl. She wanted to stand on her own, for the kind words of the people who protected her...but it was their words that mattered, even if they were lies. She was weak like that. Even if Sou wasn't real, she wanted to see him again. She wanted to hear: It's alright.
She sprints to meet him, stepping over his own body to grip at the corners of his jacket. Her sleeves are wet and red, but she reaches up a shaking hand to grab at his scarf and sob into his chest. ]
Kanna was so afraid. She...she thought you were gone, Sou. Kanna was so useless, she couldn't do anything. Again and again...she can't protect anyone. [ The rest is cut off by a sob. ]
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Date: 2021-09-13 08:54 am (UTC)And if his breath is hitching a little as well, it's just silent laughter.]
Kanna... [His heart is breaking. There's a long stretch of time he leaves it at that, working his tongue with his teeth because he can't mess this up again, he can't.] You're just a kid... I-it's not your job to... we're supposed to protect you, that's how it is...
[He's giving silent thanks to the body on the floor, himself both dead and alive and Kanna alive alive alive.]
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Date: 2021-09-13 09:05 am (UTC)Still in the hall, that half step hesitance behind Sou casting her perfectly in shadow as she watches Kanna reach out to Sou. The way his breath hitches, the way they cling to each other. Truly, its undoubtable how much they cared for each other. She can't even be sure why she doubted it. She's never seen Sou look like this, never in a million years. Never seen him smile like there wasn't anything weighing him down, not a trace of Sou Hiyori to be seen.
She ruined this. She...it was her. There's no one else she can blame. She took this away from him--the words catch-- I didn't want too! What had she been thinking back then...the memories are fuzzy with panic, the thought process of a girl she knows is her, but could hardly recognize.
Kanna's getting blood all over Shin's shirt. She's hugging him...Sara...Sara can't look. ]
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Date: 2021-09-13 09:16 am (UTC)She's gripping her head, sweating bullets, and if the two in front of her weren't so distracted, they'd probably notice. Sara lowers her hands.
Kanna...at what point did Sara stop thinking about Kanna like she was a person, instead of a nameless sin? Back then, she thanked Sara, she told Sara too look after Sou, and Sara's been trying, right? She defended him from Midori, she helped him here, keeping that will alive. Even if looking at Sou's hateful expression...she thought maybe she'd regretted it. That she made the wrong choice. Kanna had been a kid, Sou was right, but Sara she...
She'd grown numb to it, just a little. To the reality of not being able to save Kanna and Nao. But now it stood stark and cruel before her, a thousand times worse then anything Midori had said about her true nature.
What's your excuse this time Sara? ]
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Date: 2021-09-13 09:21 am (UTC)She...cannot break down here. She cannot, absolutly not, NEVER let Sou know. He'd kill her. She knows he will, even if she tries to carry on Kanna's wish. He'd kill her, and she'd deserve it. She doesn't want to die.
The two of them are still distracted, so...so...its enough time to bite down on the palm of her hand, and stifle any cry. Force her face back into something more approaching greatfullness. Somehow, she'd doubt Sou would notice, with Kanna by his side again. She wasn't good at emoting at the best of times. She was clammy enough, from her brush with her own corpse...
It's a small thing, to step forward.]
Kanna...it's good to see you again.
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Date: 2021-09-13 09:29 am (UTC)[ The hug, its warm. ]
Kanna...Kanna just wanted to say thank you. But Kanna never even got the chance! So please, let Kanna say-
[ She looks up when Sara speaks, hurriedly wiping her face with a dirty sleeve to peer around Shin's shoulder.]
Sara! You too! You're both here?
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Date: 2021-09-13 12:47 pm (UTC)He takes a step swinging outwards so they're all facing each other, breaking the hug; the arm closest to Kanna lingering for a second more before returning to it's usual place. He's still standing close to her, the way Sara might remember... going into a room to see them there like peas in a pod.]
Yep. Just the two of us, though.
[The spell's sort of been broken... now he has no idea how he's going to deal with this. He wipes the edges of his eyes with a thumb matter-of-factly, falling back into a default. It's one thing to want to change, another to rip off every inch of your own tattered stitched-together skin. He should know.]
Let's get you out of here, Kanna.
[Maybe she'd disappear like smoke and mirrors, the moment he took his eyes off her, and he knows he'll hate the school deeply and vindictively for it, but he couldn't live with himself either, insomuch as he still can, if he didn't try. She can't stay here, in the silent dark with only corpses.
...it's probably apparent that thoughts of the laptop have been detonated. That sort of thing happens even when you're not behind it, Sara.]
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Date: 2021-09-17 07:35 am (UTC)She waves a hand to say hello. Sara might not be like Shin, in some concrete belief her touch is poison, but she thinks if Kanna comes any closer she might loose what composure she's regained. ]
Yes, everyone else... [ The look she shoots Shin is hesitant and tight, how much should they say? ] Everyone else seemed...do you know what happened?
[ The second look she shoots Shin is more severe, a pained wild, indescribable expression, half close to something genuine breaking through because yes, she might want to protect Kanna somewhere, deep among every conflicted feeling, but this isn't real, is it? This is still that elevator...a nightmare meant to torment them. ...Torment her, probably. Shin seems happy. But the school knew what she couldn't bear to see. ]
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Date: 2021-09-17 07:44 am (UTC)Kanna...she...doesn't know. [ It takes an few tries for he to get the words out, gripping Shin's coat like a lifeline. ] We were alone in the room...and all the collars went off. It was so noisy. She could hear it...all across the floor.
[ Her other hand comes up to grip at her bucket, staring down at her feet as the younger girl tries to cling to a courage that feels too big for her. But Kanna...she needs to tell someone, she can't break down like Kugie. She wants to understand, so she has to focus. ]
But now Kanna is confused. Because, what she remembers isn't true. She thought...Sou...When he heard that. He grabbed Kanna. He did something with her collar, but before Kanna could even blink, he'd pushed her away. It was so fast. Kanna didn't even have a chance to try! She c-couldn't, not even in time to ask him why! [ The damn finally breaks, and she wrenches her hand away from Sou to sob suddenly into her hands. ]
Did..that not happen? Is everything actually okay, and Kanna's just crazy? She's so confused, because Sara and Sou are here and okay, and getting along now. Does this mean she died?
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Date: 2021-09-17 08:36 am (UTC)He doesn't try to shake Kanna off or detach her as she explains... she's Allowed. :' )]
I wouldn't think about it too hard, if I were you.
[Easy, almost too easy, to slip into the same groove, the same footsteps. Don't even bother Kanna, silly child. You wouldn't get it, so don't even try. Just leave it to him and do what he says... and don't betray him. Some soft part of him mewls a pained warning, and it widens into a sharp split, like turning something double-sided inside out, when she asks if she died, because he knows that well, hand hovering and falling as she sobs, leaning over, head turned to her.]
Y-you're still breathing, aren't you? Just focus on that...
[What she's said though... the collars all going off at once? That's... not impossible, but why? Why end the game there? He can belatedly and begrudgingly admit it... Sara has a point. It's bizarre. Kanna's though... he must have used his key on her. He can't help but glance at himself on the floor, like levering up a scab. Blood under his fingernails... he'd regretted it, he'd clawed at his collar and spat at the world in his last moments, still trying any way out to survive but... before that, he'd done it, knowing it. In at least one universe, even if it was a school's sick play, he'd done it. He'd asked Sidney what made them different... and this is... in it's own way, an answer.]
Ahaha... I guess this means... you've won, Kanna. You've won! Ahahahaha....
[The laugh and the smile... they're warped by his own incongruous relief.]
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Date: 2021-09-17 09:00 am (UTC)[ Her eyes are still full of tears, even as she turns to grab onto Sou's arm, the already stained fabric stretching taunt as she stares up at him. ]
Don't! Just don't! Don't make it sound like Kanna wanted this! It's not hard to say that she wanted to escape with everyone! Sou, and Sara, and Reko and everyone else! So don't say...say something like that.
[ She's a dumb, useless, sister killing kid and she didn't want this to happen. Seeing her sister, and now Sou die in her place...how is she supposed to atone for that? Wasting their lives for someone who couldn't do anything. Its awful.
Her eyes stray up to Sou's face, then down, widening to the lack of a collar poking up from behind the scarf. Sara is the same. ]
She didn't want to win without either of you...
[ Being haunted anyway...by someone kind. But it was her fault wasn't it, if she won? So why couldn't they be cruel? ]
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Date: 2021-09-17 09:39 am (UTC)Ahaha... of course you didn't want it Kanna. You're a good kid like that... [How is his attempt at at a comforting tone coming out so wrong has he just done this too much, drunk too much of it, and now he's just stuck being this now? Who's in control right now?] Escape with everyone huh... would be nice...
[He still remembers it, the high and low of it.]
It's disgusting isn't it... but... can't I be happy it's you? It's not like there's anything that can be done now...
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Date: 2021-09-18 04:51 am (UTC)[ She can't bare to watch this anymore, no matter how many sins she's hiding. Gently she reaches for his shoulder, knowing the sudden contact will probably make him flinch, but gripping on anyway. Pulling him back, just a little. ]
Enough... It's fine.
[ She looks down at Kanna with a smile Sou can't see. Her fingers dig into the corner of his scarf, not enough to be painful, but tight enough she can't hide the tremble. ]
What Sou is trying to say...is that he's very worried for you, and he's glad you're alright.
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Date: 2021-09-18 08:28 am (UTC)S-sorry...
[He bites his tongue before he can say more than that. Sara's fingers tighten, shaking... he has practice enough with Komaeda fighting the urge to lean away a little, his shoulder stiff and still.]
I... think I'll go. W-won't be long...
[He tries to smile but it's weak and transient, like he's used it all up. He flicks Sara a look as he pulls away towards the door, still kind of held by the shoulder. After days of telling Kanna to stay away from Sara, don't speak to her, don't interact, don't trade tokens... this might seem very strange to her, he thinks. He's trusting you with her, the look says. Very specifically and deliberately. Don't betray him.
He ducks one side down a little in a worryingly practiced motion and leaves proper... after a period of time to have a bit of a Moment and then some exploration (can't really call it a headcount if nobody has heads) he comes back, panting and a little out of breath, leaning against the door frame.]
Q-taro's missing...!
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Date: 2021-09-21 05:53 am (UTC)A small fragment can be heard, before they turn to look at him.]
"-so you promised?"
Yes. [ Sara's teeth clench, but she stops short, looking up and over at Sou. ]
M...missing? Are you sure? There's lots of secret passages on this floor. [ Though only Gin should know about them, this early. ]
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Date: 2021-09-21 06:06 am (UTC)Kanna knows Q-taro was acting a little weird, maybe he found something that made them want to end the game?
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Date: 2021-09-21 07:42 am (UTC)I'm sure... I even checked the room above the monitor room. [The computers were useless without the chip but the memorandum was... unsettling. He'd moved on quickly before the portrait could stare at him any further.] There's only so far anyone could have gone... I couldn't get in the attractions alone to check... but Q-Taro wouldn't have been able to either.
[Most of the group seemed be where or near where they were when the collars went off but Gin... he'd clearly been trying to head towards the lobby. Shin had spent a while stuck staring down at the small form. He'd stolen a blanket from one of the other bedrooms and unwittingly likewise covered it.
Kanna... he fully enters the room a bit more cautiously, torn between wanting to be next to her and not trusting himself after that and sort of awkwardly hovering as a result.]
Acting weird... [Found something... A horrible train of thought starts to move, very slowly, but picking up speed, and the blood runs out of his face as he recalls a certain bribe and the world narrows into a pinpoint of horror.] Kanna, didn't we... don't tell me the escape ticket...!
[Kanna had found out Q-Taro was trying to gather a lot of tokens. Sou knew how to buy the escape ticket. It had seemed like the perfect thing to offer for the laptop... especially since it was probably a lie or a trap or just a toying string. He didn't think that amount would be actually achievable! Surely everyone wasn't that stupid!]
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Date: 2021-10-02 07:38 am (UTC)[ Sara only has time to say that before the lights flicker, plunging them both into darkness. A low rumble echos through the faculity, and when the lights brigthen again, she's on her feet, eyes wide. faint trickle of dust falls from the ceiling between Kanna, Shin and Sara. ]
Sou. We need to go.
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